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Fishing In The Field

LYRICS

2016
 

01     The King

I am a woman and i’ll tell you where i’ve been
at fifteen i met the king
that’s when i left my country 7 years ago
he decided i was gonna be his 5th wife and i said no

every year he takes a virgin to enhance his life
he keeps them all imprisoned and calls them wives
his palaces are mainly walls
and once a year they get a treat to a US shopping mall

here i am in Birmingham
and i’m hoping to stay
here i am in a foreign land
but i stand unafraid

here’s where my mother came when she escaped
from a man who believed it's a woman’s fate
that it has always been and will always be
to be beaten, to be bait and to obey

but our bodies scream that it’s never too late
and so once a week i go out and i demonstrate
‘cause the king is king and that should change
the crown is getting old and the people should reign

here we are in Birmingham
and we’re hoping to stay
here we are in a foreign land
but we stand unafraid

i am a woman and i’ll tell you of what i dream
i wanna be nobody’s queen
the king is in the emperor’s clothes, alone
and then he’s gone, we’ve thrown his throne

© Lily Kiara

 

02     Julie                                                                                               

We played at Buddy’s gig in Clarksville tonight
got to write on jody’s wall
then headed for some greasy food in the middle of the night
and checked in at a motel nearby

Julie there sighs and says it’s hard to find a room
on the ground floor and non smoking
another sigh, we laugh and say we just played some music
does she have a place to stay

Julie says she doesn’t have a life
that she is stuck here at this desk
the children in the other room overwhelm
with their liveliness

Julie says she’s dreamt of traveling as a child
she watched the happy people dancing
suddenly a light is shining from her eyes
when she breaks into a smile

she covers up her face with her hand in shame
when she knows what she’s revealed
but underneath her hand everything has changed
and she finds us a room named King James

Julie says she doesn’t have a life
that she is stuck here at this desk
the children in the other room overwhelm
with their liveliness

Julie says when the desk is closed at 2 am
she jumps into the pool
but not tonight it rains my dears
and me, i ain’t no fool
no, i ain’t no fool
no she ain’t no fool
no she ain’t no fool

© Lily Kiara


03     La Bestia

I travelled on La bestia it only rained one day
my children and my wife are following while i pave the way
my girl she didn’t want to run away with the gang
my boy he didn’t choose to join they burnt our house and land

they’re waiting in the forest by a river that still flows
paying the coyotes to know which way to go
i worry ‘cause the boats are thin not made for who they bring
i buried someone’s child here by the side of the road

troopers of the state are watching our every move
across the other side but now all my livelihood
is in between hope for a better life and tiredness so deep
if this was not a nightmare i would let myself sleep

when we come to the promised land we’ll need to make them see
we never planned to leave our land or to be refugees
our hope is to have brighter days and peaceful nights
we didn’t come to bother them but to live a decent life

by the river is a fisherman but he won’t come back here
the fish have gone they’re moving on they don’t feed on blood and fear

© Lily Kiara


 04     Either Way

This is no time to retrieve
so i put on my walking shoes and look at the sky
you stand in front of the window
and prefer to watch alone at the ships passing by

no childhood pictures were shown
no earliest songs were shared
this space is stripped bare to the bone
and the marrow where i lived no longer is my home

i take my shirt, my socks, a pair
and then i fix my hair
you say why don't you stay
but we both know this cannot last
and i don't want to go
but either way
it' s a hard price to pay

this is no time to stay
you used to be the one to leave always anyway
of all of the bubbles i’ve blown
the biggest still floating is i’m better of alone

i am bolder than contamination
i am more than just a phase
i hope that you will remember me well
when the haze is cleared between love and lost in fear

this is no time to retrieve
so i put on my walking shoes and look at the sky
then i remember the ground
i walk away and inside i say goodbye

© Lily Kiara


05     Ready

I think i am ready to let it go, all that i resent
all that is left is better than that, a bit of sentiment
here it comes, i'm free free free
today i feel relief –lief –lief

i think i am ready to opne my eyes and take in all the light
nothing tempts me to be blind and all is clear and bright
here it comes, i see see see
today it seems so easy

i think i am ready to trust the days and all that they entail
the way the water and the wall, i'm ready for it all
here it comes, i let it flow
the wind it just blows

i think i am ready to let it go, all that i resent
all that is left is better than that, a bit of sentiment
here it comes, i'm free free free
today it seems so easy

© Lily Kiara


06     Oh, Birmingham

There’s a face in the sky opening it’s eyes
looking up from the cloud
that it came from and into which it will die
never even wondering why

we are passing by trees and Fireworks Cities
Tallapoosa river
made a set list with my friends in the back of the van
well, a beginning and an end

there’s a lake amidst the trees there’s a road amidst the lake
there are fumes in the air i take
i think of that song where the clinic is at bay
oh, Birmingham we’re on our way

Birmingham we're on our way…

the closer we get
the more i feel like i don’t know anything yet
but i breathe in the fumes and i sing that old tune
i think of all the things i’ve read

Harper Lee, Montgomery
Selma, Alabama state
makes me shiver in the heat, makes me wanna say
oh, Birmingham we’re on our way

there are days that come
there are songs that stay
there are places that we hope will change
before we go away

when the nights are done
and the light shines on
the paradigm for the new day
i bow my head and pray

Birmingham we’re on our way…

© Lily Kiara


07     The Lion and the Sheep

 My name is Charles, i ask you to feed
the lion instead of the sheep in me
i am not what you thought you could see
i was brought in by men i thought were helping me

in my head were waging battles and wars
my body blue on the cement floor
they took my own clothes and gave me some dress
but i had lost both my parents so i had worked with less

they asked me: do you plan to kill yourself?
i said: good morning to you too
why am i here in this isolation cell
they just turned around and left me in hell

why why why
why why why
why why why
why

you said i could go if i would start to eat
but i don't want to take in what you're feeding me
my name is Charles i could see from behind bars
the lion i am and the sheep you are
the lion i am and the sheep you are
the lion i am
the lion i am

© Lily Kiara


08     Mama, Nobody’s Here                                

Mama, nobody’s here but the baby
too late for maybe, it’s clear
i love her dear i also fear
it will never be enough
i’ll be too rough too soft too loud
will i shout when she needs me to hear

mama, nobody’s here but the child
may she stay free and wild
it’s clear i love her so i let her know
she is always welcome and wanted
and when she’s ready i will let her go

mama, nobody’s here but me
is it too late to see that you were me
and i was you and now i’m moving on
all i do is new to me and dare i say
that i feel free

© Lily Kiara


09     The Rain

This sunday morning brings a new dawn
when i awake the day is on
and i let myself read read
i leave the rain the rain
i leave the rain the rain

the world and other places
the same river twice
i’m living in those pages
the rest is passing by
all is passing by

and then the river takes me
down the stream i float
the sky is all around me
and then i’m in a boat

i’m sailing i am sailing
when everything turns white
and then i am an eagle
taking flight
taking flight

and when i soar i see
the wind it blows my way
and when i see i know
this is how it flows
this is how it flows
this is how it flows
this is how it flows

this sunday morning brings a new dawn
when i awake the day is on
and i let myself read read
i leave the rain the rain
i leave the rain the rain

© Lily Kiara


10     Pour Me Sweet

four more days
i can’t wait
already straightened my hair

i am clearing my thoughts
try to laugh about my flaws
i’ve got to break this law

pour me tea pour me milk
bring me sugar and sweet
pour me all that you dream and see

i swim with you naked
i fix what you break
i turn the puddle into the sea

in the hole of my heart
on top of the chart
is a pink charade

in the back of my mind
the chatter i find
is a sad parade

pour me sun pour me air
sing me poems of skies
pour me sweet little lullabies

i walk with you long
i carry you strong
until the sea becomes me

pour me sun pour me air
sing me poems of skies
pour me sweet little lullabies

i walk with you long
i carry you strong
until the sea becomes me
until the sea becomes me

© Lily Kiara


11     Fish

mother    father
fish    bread
brown    pink
heart    head

Indonesia    Holland
pride    guilt
spread    conquer
shot    still

drift    wood
fight   bare
dream    gone
move    on

thrown    alone
loss     care
wind     sea
wave     dare

© Lily Kiara


12     PROUD / HOPE

They would kill me ‘cause i wouldn’t go to war
i prayed to trust what i would choose for
so don’t tell me what to do ‘cause i won’t do it for you
and anyway, i ‘m leaving today

they said the lower lands is where you need to be
they said if they wouldn’t love me they would still care for me
so i came down the mountain, followed the river to the sea
and the waters brought me here, just me

but they must have been mistaken or i must not mean a thing to them
‘cause i cannot believe this is where they say i am
the walls are closing in on me
and every time i rise they say i have no right to stand

i am proud of my body i am proud to be
but hell yeah it’s not public property
i am proud of my looks and i am proud of my ways
i came here to be safe

enough is enough is enough in this world
i didn’t come from far to shrink and curl
i left everything i love, everything i owned
now hope is my home

i left everything i love, everything i owned
hope is my home
i left everything i love, everything i owned
hope is my home

© Lily Kiara

 

13     Lullaby

have you ever been sung a lullaby
have you ever been sung a song
girl we don´t even know your real name
shame is not on you
settlers unsettling everything you know
everywhere you´ve grown
shame baby is not on you

have you ever been sung a lullaby
have you ever been sung a song to sleep at night
girl we don´t even know where you came from
here´s a little song to you
girl I don´t even know your real name
but here’s a little song
to sing away the shame

have you ever been sung a lullaby
have you ever been sung a song
girl you can lay your head down
´cause here´s a little light
however long the night

©Lily Kiara